Low-functioning soul

It turns out that a low-functioning nervous system results in a low-functioning soul. Loss of brain function is making me smaller and less interesting, and less capable of experiencing. No wonder I'm losing contact with everyone. The soul is still here inside of me though, screaming to get out and feel.

New GP appt

Scary, unrelenting eye pressure, plus very bad experience with new doctor that is hitting me very hard. I have no time for this, for one false start after another, with these people. I'm in too much pain, etc., to make sense to a doctor or to be seen as someone worth listening to. I felt as if he were on the other side of a tunnel, I noticed that at the time... He has no idea that I'm in such a horribly altered neurological state, as I struggle to think and remember and focus and explain. He probably thinks it's "normal" for me, a sign of craziness, not evidence of a sane person struggling to get past a neurological barrier to communicate. I have to have an advocate.