Sept 3 2009

The tooth seems to have been the right one. I hope to delete info. here if it becomes obselete, such as everything about the pulled tooth once I'm sure it all went fine. I don't want readers overloading on details.

I screwed up my dentist appointment for tomorrow. It seem to sneak up on me; suddenly I realized it was tomorrow and I thought it was still a week off. This is new. I take steps to get around my memory problem so that doesn't happen to me. I had to cancel because I hadn't arranged to get enough rest to recover enough to make the trip. Then when I called to cancel the taxi, they swore I hadn't arranged for it. (You have to arrange for this state-paid service well in advance.) I was absolutely certain I had, but only a special long-distance taxi company makes that trip, and I never called them.

In other words, I'm losing more ground, in my brain function. I used to say I felt half asleep all the time. Now it's two-thirds or three-quarters. I wonder how little oxygen my brain is struggling valiantly to get by on... I screw up more and more important phone calls, because of terrible concentration.

I'm failing to prepare for possible Social Security and Public Aid reviews, and the next housing review, by working on finding a new doctor, because of my endless eye abuse--sleep deprivation cycle. Losing huge amounts of time. I should be in a good bed with good food and no light to recuperate, not struggling to think and work now.

Possible areas for new doctor to look into: Compromised liver function-- local eye anesthetic? Local eye anti-inflammatory? (Bring down eye swelling)-- PET scan... for neuro-transmitter loss? Dopamine etc.?-- Immune system boost? (to counteract environmental assaults, possible accumulated alcohol effects, and damage from anti-arthritis drugs)-- Flushing my system out... that colonoscopy flush was somewhat "energizing", or something. In a good way, not like my nervous system over-reacts to light.

Really ill all the time, and can't get break from it. The blankness is basically making me forget who I am, my own personality. That's too complicated to explain here and now. All in all, I can't take this at all anymore, not even a little bit.

My friend Helen has ideas on what to ask a new doctor to look into. I need to get all that info. down.